Today I got up and decided to keep both boys home. I just felt I needed some time with them. I needed time to sit and talk with them what they would like to do wether it be continue school or homeschool. I thought about it during the day. I enjoyed my time with them today.
I am working in my mind what I want to do. Today I just took the day to breath and relax. I went and did a photoshoot of a daycare center. I went and got my band filled again after it being deflated. I was just here.
I am trying to be understanding of what the school says but I am still pissed. I tried to be understanding of Pauls ideas and what he wants. I am the one who does all the battling and caring of the children. He does get up during night with them and does when he wants to them. Settling for what he believes the school is saying.
My issue this child has been in school five days a week since he started. He has had a five day a week program from 5 months old. When we knew things were different with him. He only increased hours when we had the dx at 19months old of autism. So why are we decreasing services. Do they not realize from birth to age 6 is the most cruical time for these children.
So today I am just choosing to breath, meditate and remember I know my children better than anyone else. I love these boys more than anybody else. I am the one with final say in wether i pull them or move them.
Say an extra prayer that payments for the vehical i am looking at is in my price range. I need to get rid of my standard so my ms stops acting horrendously to me.