Sundays in our home are a day of rest and laziness. We enjoy each other. I will not be moving today unless I have to. We have moved everything that can be moved until the first. I am left with some kitchen stuff just enough for each meal. I also have our tv, a air mattress, bathroom stuff and clothes. The kids have there expandable couches and movies and tv. We have the family tv downstairs. My laptop and a camera. That is it. Can I tell you air mattresses suck!!!!!! My body has not hurt this bad since before my diagnosis of MS.
I looked at him and told him if he wanted anything done today it would be him doing it. All I asked was for my mattress to stay. Cant wait to get to my moms. I will have a real bed again lol.
He will be telling work tomorrow about his new job. I cant wait to hear what they have to say about it. I am not one to really care about that kind of stuff. This company has had an opportunity to help its employees and it hasn’t. Though they are lining their pockets nicely.
The kids are excited for their move to grandmas. I am too. It will give me time with my mom. It will give me time with my brothers. We are going to treasure our time with each other. It could be awhile before we are back to ct.
CT doesn’t seem like home anymore and we haven’t left yet. I know this post makes no sense but I have not slept any real sleep in awhile. It has been broken with stress and worry. I see our light at the end our tunnel and that is helping. I am searching for our in South Carolina and have found some awesome homes. We are talking with a realtor tomorrow on a few that are rent to own options. I always laughed when my parents said they never saw us kids living CT. I always wondered why. I have my family here but that’s it. CT is on of the most expensive states to live in. The education is a joke. The taxes between state and town will kill you alone. The cost of living 9 times out of 10 out weighs the pay. So no CT is not for me or my family. I can see my mom wants to pick up and leave too. She swore to my brothers that she wouldn’t do anything until they graduated high school. That’s another 4 years. She just wants a fresh start. I am hoping that having my brothers down with us next summer might help them see that there other things out side of colchester. I guess here doesn’t seem like home so much because we have sunk and failed here.
I will share a conversation I had the other day with a friend. Paul and I have never been as poor as we are now. When I say I have no money I mean we don’t have two dimes to put together. The whole reason of moving to my moms and him going ahead of us so we can all go down together with in a month or two. Her daughter is having trouble with being so miserable and just really unhappy about her situation. I have always been happy the last few months I try and catch myself and remember my blessings. I have my family, a roof over our head and food in our bellies. Paul and I have never been so full of hope. I don’t know where it is coming from but It is there. I remember as a kid my parents saying they never had been so happy as the times they were struggling. I think I have the reason. You are forced to be a family and do things together. Instead of going off and doing what you want to do. There isn’t that extra 10.00 in the bank for gas to be wasted or for the movies.
I am just content to see where this journey is going to take our family