I have three more until the first half of Paul’s basic training is done. He has a pt test tomorrow. I am hoping and praying he passes. Then he wont have to do it in blue phase. I miss him like crazy.
Last night I was sitting on the porch trying to feel better. I heard a fight going on between the neighbors. My heart hurt for the husband who was just being belittled for every little thing. This morning neighbor comes over for coffee. We usually do this on Sundays unless I have company. She started in on how annoying he is. Had to remind her that she is lucky to have him and that his job provides her more cushion than she could imagine. These people by no means are poor. She looked at me confused. I had to remind her that Paul had joined the military to provide for his family. The economy here is just as bad as back home. Could we have moved back to CT to live with my mom. Absolutely. Did we want to nope. We love it here. I know we will most likely be stationed else where and that is ok. He is missing out on Nate going to Kindergarten. He is missing Blake’s birthday. He is going to be missing my birthday and all the other special occasions he will be missing or has. I also reminded her that my Mom has lost her husband.
While her husband may have annoying habits, she is lucky to have someone to annoy her. I told her going to bed alone each night sucks. That getting a couple letters and maybe a phone call each week sucks. Having to raise the boys alone sucks. This is what we have chosen to do to provide for our family. I would give anything to have my husband home and annoying me. She took a breath and really thought about what I was saying. I am glad. I know they are having a hard. They have issues with getting pregnant and the son they do have is driving them nuts with his behavior. In reality they have a great life. Money, a house that is stinking gorgeous and a son while he is a handful at 10 is adorable. She got it. Then of course she asked if this making it to the website. Looked at her with my duh look. Explained it would be here for her to refer back to when she is feeling annoyed and wants to belittle her husband again. She knows I am doing this out of love for her and her family. We have similar back grounds where we saw people go for the jugular. While not in my moms house it was around at others homes.
We then got to talking about church. She and her husband are leaving their church. To much politics and not what she thought loving God was about. She asked why we have joined a church here. Told her the same reason she is leaving hers. I don’t do clicky, I don’t do we expect 10 percent of your pay and I dont do if you are not here every week than you are not a good christian. That is how this church is. We have tried it a few different times. I have met with the pastor and just not my cup of tea. I have told her that I believe God can hear our prayers anywhere. I can talk to him just fine in my living room or on my back porch or from my bed. She agrees. I was sharing with her the devotional I am working on. I hope she purchases it. I love our chats and love our coffee dates. Sweet Kim remember to give them slack they are men. Remember to give yourself slack. If you are stressed and annoyed and focused so on having a baby, it wont happen. Also remember that God knows the hurt you had yesterday, the forgiveness you have today and what he plans for you tomorrow. As much as you want to be control in this destiny it is all in his time. xoxo sweet girl.
On to my kids, they are stark raving mad. We will be running them like crazy tomorrow. I have been down with a migraine I guess you could call it. All I know is that double vision and puking like crazy did not help the situation. It was so bad that my hair acutally hurt. HORRID! All I wanted was my husband. Blake wants Daddy for his birthday. I can’t give him that until the 19th. So I told him we will be doing a small party here on his birthday but we will be giving him his big present in KY. He thinks it is a new baseball bat from the factory. I love it.
So I am going to bed in a bit. I am exhausted from my long night last night. I am hoping to get some much needed rest. Have a great night.