When I think about the last 15 months and how much our family has changed. The struggles we have surpassed. I am blown away. We moved to South Carolina thinking it was forever. We didn’t realize dream job was to be lost. That we would come close to losing everything again.
He made the decision to join the Army. I was scared and nervous. I have always held his hand and jumped in feet first waiting to see where we were going to land. In the midst of this I started talking with my boss about two books I wanted to do. She said do them and she would publish them. I have been doing them. I am excited to see the writing process come together. How I can do this from anywhere. It makes me smile. We have been taking tons of chances this past 15 months. Glee’s Taking chances has been a recurrent song in our lives. One verse is always in our mind.
But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?
While we were taking this chance I realized we have been very much like this butterfly spreading its wings and flying. We started out as a caterpillar and have completely transformed our lives. Has this been easy? No most days I have had to remind myself there is a bigger plan out there for us. I have had my fair amount tears and wondering what we are getting ourselves into. I am excited for the new transition in our family. Are all obstacles out of our way? Absolutely not. Can we breath. Sure can! I am still on the fence about how I feel leaving everyone behind. I am excited and scared all in one. I know the Army is giving us an opportunity to travel Europe that I wouldn’t normally get or would have to pick and choose carefully as to what we could afford.
I am amazed at how well we have weathered this storm that I never thought was going to end. We are almost done and almost reunited. We have come through this struggle. I can’t look at it as a struggle. I am reminded of how strong and independent I am. I have been able to handle everything these boys have thrown at me from surgery to severe concussions. Keep going. I haven’t backed down. Though the last two weeks I have been ready to throw in the towel from having the kids home and homeschooling to my car exploding. I keep chugging along. I know I can do this. I just see nothing but a bright future ahead. I haven’t seen that for us in a long time. I think this Army thing just maybe what the doctor has ordered for our family.
I found this quote and loved it.
Love is like a butterfly: It goes where it pleases and it pleases wherever it goes. ~Author Unknown
I am not so sure why I love this quote but it resonated deep with in me. Maybe it is my love of the little creatures. Maybe it is becasue they put a smile on my face each time I see one. It is the symbol for donors. My dad was a donor and when he passed my mom and grandma agreed to tissue donation. So when I see a butterfly it reminds me that he is with us still.
The last few days have been nothing but feelings of peace. I am overwhelmed with everything we need to do. I am at peace with where we are going. We are spreading our wings to fly. Each time I look at this Ring I am reminded of our journey. I am pleased.