So we are almost mid way into January. I have been working on tasks I set for my vision board. Each year I do one and last year was the first year I didn’t complete two. I was sad at first. I realized 2017 was a hard year for our family. It was a year of adjustment. I was working with difficult students and teacher. Students this school are amazing and still have a difficult teacher. So choices will be made at the end of this school year. That is neither hear nor there.
This year I am choosing me. I give my all to my job, my family, and others. I don’t practice self care for myself. I spent much of 2017 under a mask. If you looked at me you would assume I was was happy. Yet I was dying inside daily. I was taking max dosages of Anxiety medications. I was not taking good care of myself. We faced some life changing illnesses. I am still fighting today. I am working on finding who I am again. I am realizing, I have to find my own voice. Stand up for what I want and respect out of others. I am usually one to let things slide. Not anymore. I deserve respect and have my wishes understood. This goes for work, kids, and guest in my home. We do things our way here. I raise my kids differently than most. They have a voice and our religious choices are different than rest of our extended family. I spent last year not standing up for us or myself. Times are changing and so is this girl.
I am also cleaning this house out. We are getting rid of all the crap that we don’t need. My one issue with the house is there is no storage! None. So we will be going through and organizing and getting rid of stuff. I am tired of the clutter. We have more home renovations to be done. We need to get rid of the carpets. We will be painting our room and the main hallways. The wall paper and boards will be gone. I hate them. I want this house to feel like our home. Right now there is still to much old owner in this house. I am just ready to for this fresh start. This new year! Out with the old and in with the new.
I have many other things I am working on. I just don’t want to be the shell of a person I was last year. That was not me. We have changes to made and business ventures to be started. Luckily for me all can be done from my home. My home is my sanctuary. It is the one place in this world that I have peace. I am done defending our families amount of pets and how we live. We live on a farm. Yes four dogs and 3 cats live in the house. They all bring joy and life to this home. We have our chickens, goats and horse. Our horse is awaiting DNA test to see if she can be foaled. She will do this twice. Once for us and once for the breeder. She has amazing bloodlines and to much so to let them stop with her.
So 2018 is my year. It is my families year. What are you working on this year? What are your goals. Not resolutions but your goals!! Resolutions don’t ever get completed. Goals give you a mindset to reach this attainable milestone/marker.