Changed our family forever. I got a call at 330 in the afternoon telling me to get a babysitter. In the 5 years we have had kids Paul has never once called and told me to get a babysitter. I knew something was wrong. Anyone who knows Paul knows he is not the romantic mushy type of person.
I wouldnt let him get off the phone until he told me why. He said something happened to Troy. My heart sank. I knew it wasnt good. I asked what happened and heard my husband choke up for the second time in our 9 years of knowing eachother. I asked if he was gone and he said yes.
I called Gina and she came and got my kids. I dont even think I was dressed at that point. I had just gotten out of the shower. I just remember screaming that this couldnt be happening. That we had just burried my father in law three months before that.
HOw was my mom and brothers going to survive. How were my sister and I going to survive without his guidence. Didnt he just promise me the night before that we would walk and do what we had to for my ms? Didnt we just sit and talk about how life was finally good. The house was just about done. Me and my kids were finally getting the apporpriate help for their dx. How in the world is this fair. He was 39 years old. You dont just die at 39. FOr those that dont know Troy was my step dad. But he was my father by all means. He raised me. He taught me to drive. He bought my prom dress and limo. He did everything for me. He paid for my senior class trip. He never once treated me and shannon like we werent his kids. He had a love about him that was no other. No matter how angry he was at you we always went to bed with us knowing he loved us.
I will never forget my mom collapsing in my arms when I finally saw her after her trip back from bridgeport. That is where they went to say goodbye. I will never forget the look of sevestaion on my grandparents face. They have already burried to two girls prior to this. I will never forget the look on my brothers face of horror, shock and just pure saddness. I remeber thinking who is going to do the guys first with my brother? I remember all the occasions that were playing in my head that my dad was going to miss.
SO today we are a year out the pain is still freash and new. Today we are no closer to finding comfort taht we all need. I know he is resting in peace. I know he is in the most beautiful place you could ever want to be. I know he is surround by god and his grace. I know my dad is with his sisters, with my babies. I will never forget sitting in the front pew and watching them close the casket for good.
May 7th 2008 for ever changed my family. Please keep us in your prayers as we try and work through this day. I have my brothers coming tonight and we are going to celebrate my dads life.
Please God Give me the Strength
gist today i am thankful for being able to celebrate my dad and spend the day with family