I watch Blake and Nathan struggle daily to keep it togeather. Sometimes it is just to much for them. We have our days of melt downs. We have behaviorist in to help with that compoent. We have meds to help with ocd.
For those of you who dont have experince with ocd it is heartbreaking. My little men fret over how their cars are placed, scheduals, baseball stats. When it is time to eat, go to bed. I have sit and cried. I dont have anything other meds to help minimize the symptoms.
I watch my children try and experess their feelings and they cant. My Nathan didnt really start talking util age 2.5. It is not until recently that we are able to understand him. Blake still has articulation issues.
Autism is not something I would wish on anyone. Your life is one struggle after another. Not understanding why you want to hug someone but you are scared to. Everything is on their terms and times they just cant do it.
You have teens and adults just stare at the tantrums becasue a stranger has touched them without their consent. YOu have adults get aggervated becasue they are trying to teach you something and you stiffen becasue of touch.
What people dont realize that these kids are just down right amazing. My kids have come from being Non verbal to being able to speak. From not showing any affection to being affectionate on their terms when they feel safe. They have started to become trusting of “strangers”.
While yes things are genereally difficult in our life and home with behaviors and tantrums. I wouldnt change this journey for the world. I would change my kids life for anything.
I see them giggle. I see them feel accomplished when meeting the tiniest of goals. I see them struggle.
Blake is playing tball and loving it. he is performing infront of people and not thinking twice about it. This is huge for us. This is huge for my shy boy.
Boys you continue to amaze mommy and daddy everyday. You love you in everyway. Dream big and your dreams will come true!
GIST= for my amazing kids and being able to accomplish my to do list