So I have had to make some choices. I have had to pick myself up dust off my knees and keep going with my weight loss without being a mom for mamavation. I am still apart of the sistahood but I am not a finalist. I am sad about that for the simple reason, I never want for anything. I wanted this so badly. I was really excited about this opportunity. I am happy for the girls who were put in the top 5. I am redoing a game plan. I had my calendar out for the year. I have marked my goals that I want to achieve weight wise. Who knows if they are healthy attainable goals, none the less they are mine. I know I have to continue this journey that I started 2 years ago. I will do this with the mamvation moms and my own stubbornness.
I have also had to make decisions on my conferences. This is due to potential boot camp with Paul. I don’t want the tickets paid for and then not be able to attend. Evo is hopefully the same weekend as his graduation and fit blogging is right before he leaves. I am going to use the money that I would for the conferences and invest in something’s for me. I also am going to take my kids back home and in may do a trip to either Atlanta or fl. I haven’t decided yet. We shall see what way the wind blows. Maybe somewhere completely different than what is listed. What I do know is that 10 weeks with two boys is a long time. We will be doing things. So I will be doing Sitscation. If your going to that let me know I look forward to meeting you there.
We have more choice to come. I am starting to put in place my support network of people I can call, skype or email when Paul leaves. So if you want to be one of those people you can email or comment. I think this time it will be a bit easier as kids will be in school and we will have a car available to leave. I am just excited at the end of his craziness of being gone we will be able to start getting out of our small amount of debt and building a nest egg. We can actually be able to survive. I have put into action a game plan, budget, a list of needs that need to be met so the kids and I can be ok while he is gone. I won’t have an extra set of hands and come may our nanny leaves for London. I know a few have asked if I know anyone down here. Nope it is me and kids. That’s it. We know no one in the area. So if you’re looking to get away come visit.
The rest we have to make will come. I am a planner by nature. I hate being late and having things not in order to an extent. A loose game plan. I will make this work. I will figure out what needs to be done and how to get through our rough patch. I always do.
I know some of you have no idea what I am talking about. This post was more for me to make some sense of what’s swimming in my head. When we left CT we had quite a few people turn their backs on us. We were left with a handful of people we could count on. Now a few don’t agree with our decisions, so we have even less. This is where my game plan comes into play. I write to work things out. So you happened to visit on one of those days.
I hope you all have a great Friday night. I have to go and pick up the Mr from work….