For me one of the best things my family has done has been move 4500 miles away from family and friends. At times it is hard to be so far away becasue we miss certin people. They all know who they are. It is also been a time for tremendous growth for our family. We have figured out more of who we are and what we are expecting out of this life.
I have said goodbye and cut away from many people over the last 19 months. We realized we are done with peoples lies and drama.I realized they weren’t make a good impact on our family.I have also gained some fantastic friends who have become our Army family. Our life is evolving and we are in such a good and happy place.
I have gained a sister I didn’t realize i didn’t have. My nephews adopted mom has become a huge part of my life. I absolutly love her and what she has done for our family. She has given my nephew a second lease on life. One that I can never ever thank her enough for. She has also reconnected Jayden and my family. My boys when we go back home do we get to see Jayden. Yes boys you will. This Auntie can’t wait!!! I have gained 5 nephews and neice. We are planning the most Awesome getaway to Flordia to reunite as a family!!!
Paul and I recently talked about how my mood has changed in the last 6 weeks. I up and left my job at the daycare center. While I loved my kids. I did not love my co workers. Well the one lady in my room. You have a management that doesn’t support the staff the way that it should. I decided I would open up the home daycare (fcc). I am still going through the process and it will get its own post. When I left my job I was tired, I was stressed and over worked. I was in a soul sucking enviroment. I wanted nothing more than to pack up and move back stateside. Which is not an option without my family. We had a tripped planned and I was so not excited about it like normal. Paul and I had time to talk the other night all he had to say was “welcome back” I knew exactly what he ment. I am taking my time with the CDC as a learning curve and a stepping stone. It would have been perfect if not for one person. I want the job that I love. I know that is teaching in some capacity. FCC is just that. While I will have all age groups I will have my preschoolers. So I will take what I learned in strong beginnings to them.
Paul and I have never been happier. We have our rythem and things are good. Don’t get me wrong we have our moments but not like how we used to fight. We have grown there thanks to the marriage retreats we have atteneded. We weren’t sure what this experince would bring us. In all honesty it has brought us much more than we expected. We have become cohesive. Our kids are thriving. They love where we are living. They are making friends. They are respectful and doing whats expected of them. They have had major strides in growth. Makes my heart smile. Our oldest has developed a sense of humor. Though everything is still black and white. I would love some grey area from both of them.
I was afraid of change for so long. I am now embracing it. With doing that I have been able to work on my book more. Where I had been blocked for so long. I have figured out where I fit in this big crazy world. I am at peace. My family is at peace. My little corner of the net is going to be making some changes too. I am moving away from the Autism. Yes my boys have it but I will still support the cause and give information at time.I am also not in a place where I feel I can give it the passion I once did. One of my favorite sources for information is Amanda. I am going to be adding a once a week craft and different activites that deal with my business. Hopefully will give families with little ones an Idea of what to do to keep bordom away. I am going to get back in the swing of wordless wednesday, tasty tuesday and more on our travels. I have about 20 different drafts of post sitting in my box. It is time to start doing what I love again. Time to allow ME time. This is my outlet, my safe haven.