I have been working on finding my way in this new journey we have started. I have been working on me. That is something I don’t do when Paul is home. I have had plenty of time to sit and reflect on myself, our life and what I wanted. I have had time to work on two books that will be published by the company I am working for.
I have been able to reconnect to my faith and start finding my beliefs and just reconnecting with my God. Something I have had trouble balancing with Paul home. He grew up in an atheist home. I grew up in a home where we discussed God and Jesus but didn’t go to church every Sunday. My kids know who God and Jesus are. I have gotten them their first children’s bible through Joyce Meyer Ministries. I love her and what she talks about. I am getting ready to Diverge even more with my faith through Mindy Ferguson’s books. I can’t wait for the kids to get in bed so I can do just that.
I have started taking a better look at my exercise and diet. So much so I went and got a trainer and am working out at they YMCA. I love that I can drop my kids for two hours and know they are safe. I can focus on my health and getting fit. I have to say I am really truly enjoying it. I love my workouts. I love the way the trainer pushes and makes me do more even when I think I can’t do anymore. I love spin class who would have thought? I so far in the two weeks I have been going I have lost 14.5 pounds. How awesome is that? They put me back on my pre lap band surgery diet. To help retrain my metabolism. I haven’t felt this good in a long time.
I have had time to discover what I like to do. What I want to do with my life. I am content being a stay at home mom to my boys. I love that I am the one raising them. Sometimes I get lost in that. I love writing my blog,doing the reviews and giveaways. I want to get back into my photography. I did a shoot with one of my authours the other day that we are looking to use for her book. I love this photo of her
Isn’t she beautiful? Her story is one that will tug at your heart strings. I am in the midst of reading her manuscript and have experienced every kind of emotion. Back to the topic at hand. I enjoyed doing her photos and editing and just playing around with them.
I love to read and I miss my blog hopping that I as able to do with Paul around. I have figured out how to fix that. So next week its back on to hopping blogs and enjoying my morning coffee over them. I love to just sit and enjoy the evenings sky, soft summer breezes. I fixed that as well. I have taken my journal out and sit with a cup of coffee to write. I love it.
I also have taken a deeper look inside to find how to grow as a mother and wife. How to better myself in General. I have taken some steps to do that. I have felt for awhile there is this never ending black cloud over our family. I hate that feeling! I have taken the drama out and have started to surround myself with Positive people. I love my boss she and I exchanged emails this morning and she said just what I needed to hear. She sent me some scripture that resonated deep within me.
So I am keeping my promise to Paul to work on me and find me. I am taking it day by day. i am enjoying my time with my children. We have about a month until school starts. I have decided that I will be taking them for a surprise to Paul’s graduation with me. They need to see their dad and I know he needs to see them. I hope he sees the small changes I am starting to make. I can say that I am on med to help with my moods and sleeping. I am feeling better. I am starting to feel a bit better. I am still stressed and over whelmed at times but that is to be expected right?
I can’t see where this journey is going to take me. For now I am off to snuggle my boys and watch a movie and be thankful for what I do have.