I love moving for the fact I get to purge my house of crap. My husband is a horder. I dont know why but he is. He saves every thing because he can fix it. It never gets fixed. My kids are the same way they are their treasures. Drives me nuts. So when they arent looking I toss.
I hate moving becasue I hate all the boxes. Though this time I cant find a hate. My hate is that I will be without my husband for five weeks. What am I going to do? Who is going to be my relife? Who is going to let me curl up to them at night and and hold me when I have had a hard day? Five weeks without that. I cant imagine it. I dont want to think about it.
He left with the kids today and went to my moms so I could pack and he could clean her garage to store our stuff. I cried as I packed his stuff into the box. Knowing I will only have him with me for a few more weeks. I am so excited about this move and what is to come but at the same time I wont have my rock with me. Silly I know but when you have been togeather everyday for the last however many years, it hits you. I am so full of different emotions. I wonder if I am strong enough to do this move. Away from my support and what I know. I wonder if we will be better off. I am sad to leave my friends and family behind. I am excited to make new friends and explore new places.
I know that god has a plan for us. I am sure he will guide me and my family down our path. I just have so many emotions I cant explain it. I am finding ways to keep us busy so our time will pass by. I am hoping we can do that quickly. I am sad Paul will miss my Blakes birthday and My brothers birthday’s and mine. He will miss my grandparents anniversaries.
So thats enough of my whining. Just needed a vent. Have a great night. i am going to continue to relax after my pedicure from today. My mom hurt my back. She bought me a pedi to drive her. She didnt have to twist my arm to much 😉