100 days. We have so many more to go. We tick each day off in the morning. The boys shake their heads and say we got this. We are unsure of how many days we truly have left. I know when He returns that things will be different. That he will have seen things to make him different. This I am ok with. I am not sure how you can be in 3rd world country and not be different.
In the last 100 days I have learned:
That it is ok to be lonely
That it is ok to ask for help
That it is ok not to be able tackle every last detail. That I am one person
That should something happen I can take care of these boys on my own. I am resourceful.
We have learned how to be a mechanic
Learned who gives a shit if you hang something crooked at least it is up and pretty in the house.
We have learned that life is not always beautiful…
The boys and I have come together to try and work together to get things done. We have taken the dog to puppy school. We have taken the time to connect each night and talk about our day. Things that we will continue when Paul gets home. We have learned that Skype is our favorite time of the day. It gives us a few minutes to connect with our favorite guy.
In a 100 days we have learned how quickly time is going by. Even when days seem endless and nights even longer. The boys wake in the morning and look outside and say good night Dad. Each night they say good Morning Daddy. I think it has helped them deal with the separation of Paul not being home. In a hundred days we have made memories and wished Paul was with us to be apart of them. We have looked at it as all the awesome places we will take him when he gets home. In 100 days we have learned how to survive and keep going when we are missing a piece of our heart.
In 100 days we have learned how to love each other from a far. We have learned how to appreciate what the other does. The boys and I have become even more proud of my husband & their dad.
Let’s bring on the next 100 days…. To see where we have come ….Eventually these days will lead our favorite guy back to us.